International

wow.. its been 3 months of bumming around and the bank account is really suffering as a result.. damn.. i really need to reverse the situation if i'm really gotta live my life as a normal functioning 32 yr old adult.. stem the rot.. ride the wave.. up from the ashes i rise..

life has been tough over the past 2 years.. i've done a lot to take 2 steps forward and 1 step back.. its really difficult trying to move forward when i keep shooting myself in the foot over and over again.. why do i hv to make my life so difficult? why cant i just be normal.. and be like everyone else? why do i have to be here?

up up and away.. no wonder i'm so intrigued by supes.. i wanna rise up up and away.. kal-el help me..

Lines

Wow.. the lappie is certainly being consumed by electronica-cancer.. multiple lines are being formed on the screen and its spreading by the day.. it started innocently with a red line down the left of the screen and has since developed into a series of different color lines of different patterns and variations.. my visuals are starting to get impeded and its high time i do something about this...

doing something about it.. there's always this inertia in my life followed by a blind burst forward tat is taking me nowhere.. loads have moved far ahead of me and here i am still trying to justify the reason why i am running around like a kampong chicken being slain for the night's dining pleasures.. running around headless and directionless.. trying to keep alive while ultimately knowing demise of some kind is near.. perhaps the other plain of existence is the comfort zone and solace being sought by the kind poultry friend of ours.. we shall see...

caught a web slinging movie tonight.. its amazingly emotional for a super hero movie but i'm sure there are many in the audience who can relate to the many human dimensions being displayed and possibly presented for discussion here.. boy girl.. friendship.. family.. greed.. fame and glory.. failures.. career building.. revenge.. etc etc.. there are lots to think about as i lay my head down tonight on my sleepy pillow.. god help me sleep thru the night please.. its been a while since i last manage that..

That's Life

"That's wat all the people say
You're sinking low in April
Rise up in May

Though the lessons been learnt
The memories in me
Shall always remain"
-Teasiyong, 2007

So the grand scheme of things have come full circle.. we're coming back into the realm of serving the multitudes.. i've learnt a lot over the past 3 months of time away from the brown waste financial institution.. catching up with ex-colleagues had been liberating.. the stories they told me made me realise why i am so glad i am out of this whole mess and yet.. with a tinge of melancholy.. i really wish these frens can be away from these pain and strife tat dictates the majority of their waking hour spent in the office.. damn..

seriously.. the more things changed the more the stay the same.. just take last sunday's football activities as an example.. i still can't pass.. shoot.. dribble.. but i love the beautiful game.. and have the fitness to partake of the rigours sans the skills.. kinda like the stigma tat has dogged me in my life... always there with a passion but somehow falling short of personal expectations in terms of performance and ability to shine.. perhaps tats the way life path has dictated for me.. i wish not for this to happen.. but destiny may spell a different walkway from wat i've intended..

live and let live...