High Ground

We stood on high ground and spoke about the past.. she was cautious and yet i could read someone rather insecure and unsure about how she should act.. be and manifest around me..

it was nice.. it was sincere.. everything was natural..

yet.. evil tots came rushing back.. ill feelings were clearly evident in the under current.. things werent as glossy as they first appear..

but she's still hawt tho....

damn~!!!!!!!!

My Little Niece

the larsens are coming to visit mid dec!! so exciting..

my little niece will always hold a special place in my heart bcos she is the first in line in the next bloodline within my immediate family circle.. tats gotta count somewhat.. but oh wait.. dear leo is so darn sweet and cute.. everybody forgets him just cos he is always the easy going and "chill" baby.. not wanting attention... getting on with things.. and moving along just so very very fine..

anyways.. i am so looking forward to them visiting.. i cant wait to cradle little chloe and leo in my arms and walk rambo with them all over again... i gotta thank the blackened ones cos its them tat caused my sister to wanna travel back to singapore and be in a safe haven away from the abnn... and thus i can see my lovely immediate "far away' family all over and over again!!

woo hoo~!!

We Are Running

we are willing and able..
and yet life finds its own full circle
over and over again we go through the same
seems like we never learn from whatever mistakes we made
or rather.. the mistakes seem to come look for us again and again
yet each time.. we succumb to it..
wonder why...

Good Fellows?

my oh my.. who the hell are these pple?

during tat conversation.. i can feel the independence.. the distance.. and yet.. sense a certain bond and draw.. its a situation of 2 opposing force at work.. for every action there's an equal and opposite reaction.. newton said it best...

so what should i read of it? how should i react? how can i harness the dynamics and energy.. ironically i just told a fren this afternoon to just let it be.. and as brett anderson said it so well so many moons ago.. everything will flow.. and yet.. during this midnight hour.. i read too much into it..

the invitation was there.. the overtures apparent.. and yet.. i distant myself.. perhaps the wound from the previous was too fresh to ignore and move on.. perhaps i have too much moral obligations and principles for my own good....

life is a roller coaster.. those who went solo came back into a state of being in a tasteless boyband.. covering up the talent in search of the mighty buck

The One With The Times We Never Had

compromise is never a good thing.. i think its a way overrated word.. some word that a cunning linguist conjured up in order to find order in matters or circumstances that should never be justified.. how can one give up personal conviction and value systems just to let a square fit into a circle? its an unnatural state of being this..

its time to right the wrong..

Canary 24 hours

this is the weirdest sensation.. to be physically near someone yet feel miles apart in terms of connectivity.. its not wrong... nor is it abnormal.. its just the natural evolution of time and space which has resulted in a state of being tat is both inexplicable and intriguing at the same time....

lois lane always had a problem with spelling in the christopher reeve series of superman movie which went wayward after the 2nd edition.. perhaps its the richard donner being sidetracked and waylaid episode tat left mr supes very little space to be what he wanted to achieve with the franchise vs what was realistically granted to him as creative genius......

anyways.. back to the main gist of the post... we are counting down to the days of being in a state of permanent rest.. and yet the journey from here to then is going to be laden with trials and tribulations that life throws you.. ready or not... its not an option for us to exercise... taking things in your stride and learning from past mistakes is the most important state of mind for most of us mere mortals.....

all i can do is to hope and pray.......................

its got what it takes

oh wow.. more than half a year without any updates in this blog.. pretty amazing stuff... i scrolled down and read some of the posts dating to way back in 2005.. very touching to read about the different life experience i had when i just turned 30.. eventually ending up where i am today.. my best bud's married.. i am planning my own sometime next year.. the may queen is truly buried and forgotten.. i wonder why she is so unwilling to talk to me the few times i buzzed her on msn..

some updates in my life.. went to nepal and new delhi in oct08 (sucks!), kagoshima in nov08 (pleasantly surprised with how much i enjoyed the trip with the place and then judo kids), the siblings came in for cny09 with their partners and we had a really good outing at the photo studio.. a new family portrait now hangs in the living room.. the entire family with spouse and kids now greet visitors as they step into the house..

work wise... the useless bum of a boss is still hopelessly inadequate.. incompetent.. and totally irrelevant.. its amazing how he manage to cling on to his job thus far.. in any other organisation.. a straight red card would've been flashed in his face.. he isn't even getting a verbal warning right now.. much less a yellow card....

my involvement in the asian youth games 2009 has taken on a more positive twist.. the portfolio is more in my hands now and i do enjoy the dynamics of the team somewhat.. so its all well and good in the work front.. the usual disturbances and quarrels with the martial arts group surfaces every once in a while but its not something which is too tricky to handle or to address properly...

music wise.. its been a barren desert for the past 3-4 years.. there had been no new pieces.. no meaningful crests.. no inspiration to write... no writing.. no singing.. no jiving.. no grooving.. its just a dead town as far as damon the writer is concerned.. i really do wish i can do more with this music front but nothing's happening right now when i pick up my six string fren.. i really wish some thunderbolt of lightning that is very frightening indeed will give me a jolt of inspiration and kickstart this entire soul lifting facade of my life...

“Oh here it comes, this funny feelin again, winding me up inside” - Van Halen