Niu Nai

This was something totally weird and random from 11 years ago. How apt I am suddenly reading this now as I was just thinking to myself earlier today how my life has moved along over the past 10 years. Lots had happened but nothing concrete going on in my life. I had achieved plenty of highs, being Director of Operations and also subsequently GM of various organisations but what had that brought me in life? Another day older and deeper in debt. It is weird. The more I achieved the less I had attained. I am now living my life scraping through every day. Gone were the days when I bought things and went travelling without a nary of care. Nowadays, I am wary of every single pence I spend. I buy cheap clothes. I wear £12 jacket that keeps me warm during the cold winter months whereas not so many moons ago those £12 would have represented a light snack on the way home from work. I ponder and researched prior to spending £5 on a pair of earphones whereas in a forgotten life, I would have bought $150 earphones in a heartbeat. Oh how I have regressed. Oh how I have sunk to a new low. And I never thought this possible. How low this ebb can get.

Somebody save me.

And now, for the words that have travelled through time.

11 years ago, I have absolutely no idea what I was saying. I will try my very best to decipher myself, the me from many many moons ago.



"she sent me really weird messages on friday..
its been six months since her name last appeared in my inbox..
i can't even begin to decide whether its welcomed or unwelcomed..
thank god for those..
though i have to admit there were really GS moments when my phone beeped..
those CT moments eventually steered me closer to home base..
away from milk drinking debauchery..
and fountains of wayne notions of the unnecessary

baggage indeed...."