Lion King

its just weird how everything comes full circle.. u did it when u were 23.. now u're 32.. and its all happening again.. u fall in love.. get to know a person.. got together.. got along for a while.. familiarity breeds contempt.. u get angry.. u forgive.. u kiss and make up.. u drive each other nuts again.. u make up.. the circle goes on.. the proximity suffers as a result.. u talk but dun speak.. u meet but dun see each other.. u hug but dun touch.. u hold hands while being disjointed.. then u guys spar verbally and over the smallest issue.. decree that its important enough to forge a permanent wall..

tats the grand scheme of life in many dimensions and directions.. for pple like ourselves who are emotionally challenged.. there are those who treasure their personal freedom and yet is so miserable being alone.. there are those who love a union but loathes the handcuffs tat accompany a properly instituted state of being.. there are those who go crazy after 10 mins being alone and just jump the gun at the next thing tat comes along.. good bad or otherwise..

having wasted so much time for the past 19 months.. i really think i should be alone for the meantime.. take some time off.. do the things i really wanna do when i'm alone.. read a book.. continue to write my songs... put a band together.. improve on my soccer game.. which i hope will be in order considering i'm kicking balls around with really skilful individuals.. get really fit and make a difference in my own personal life..

moving on is always tough but i am inclined to think tat i've always been able to do it a lot better with less emotional baggage than a lot of my peers.. not tat i am putting myself on a pedestal and declaring myself being holier than thou.. far from it.. its just tat i am glad my mental resolve and capabilities tell me a lot more than just to be mired in emotionally irrational thoughts..

having said tat.. boy i am only human.. woo hoo hoo hoo...

in the jungle the mighty jungle the *sic* (lizard king) sleeps tonight