Thousand Autumns

Cheering me while I eat with pigs
Herein lies the flesh thats weak
In my glance I glance a peek
Keeping me adrift the peak
Alas the dessert has arrived~!!
My mind astray those lonely nights
In Nippon land I found the light
You made me feel so young again
And never shall I feel this pain
Here I lost and found the way
Against the grain we both shall sway
Run to the hills that's capped away
Alas the dessert has arrived~!!

Bye Bye Fuji Land

have you felt this way? everything's the same.. where tomorrow.. is today..

those are but lyrics i wrote so many moons ago to signal a brand new day.. a brand new morning where the people of the world came out to play..

the came is mean to be pensive.. to simulate thoughts.. to simulate a thinking process.. the words preceding spoke of a brand new day and yet the words following signalled a throw back to the past..

that is the very nature of human existence.. the more things change the more they stay the same.. i was like this when i was 20.. i am still like that now..

attracting the attention.. from the same age bracket.. as we move along.. we still have 20 falling at our feet and absolutely in awe of us.. we wonder why.. we have not done anything to draw them in and yet they are drawn.. they are intrigued.. they are keen and shall learn from this..

one day i shall be back and i shall conquer the origins of the courts that spawned a thousand autumns.. so until we meet again.. i wish you take care of yourself and do not tire yourself out.. china is rising up as a major power so please i pray for your soul that you do not try too hard to undo the shift in balance.. just be yourself and try to cope with the dogma.. the central kingdom shall rise again and be the almighty.. maybe not in my lifetime but i am assured that my future generations shall walk with their head held high and mingle with the elite while the brown waste continue to play second third or fourth fiddle as they had always been.. this is a creed that has never and never will be the powers that be.. they shall always exist to serve and clean after the elite and smell the anal vapour that emit from our very bottom while we are lost in thoughts..

learn to cope CM.. and until we meet again.. which will be very soon i assure you.. take good care of yourself and god bless you.. wherever he is from..

Brand New Skies

tonight i have sorted out my tots.. i will wrest control and put things into my own hands.. i will make my own path and destiny and pursue my passion.. my longing..

i shall do it and succeed..

yeah!

Take Me Away

i am so tired of this place..
i don't mean that literally.. place in this instance is talking about the physical and psychological state of being.. in a limbo state.. in a state of hanging.. in a state of realising that your wife is still in your stratosphere.. still lingering in your mindshare.. still occupies a very very special place in your heart.. that is when you realise these are the ties that bind.. and yet there are cancerous prying forces that rip at the seams.. tear you apart.. the foreign invasion.. the necessary family evil..

life is a fine balance.. it is difficult to pry yourself from the interwined web of bondage and ties that one wish one can be sans of.. i am so tired.. please lord.. take me away.. deliver me from this current existence.. i do want to go.. far far away from these heartache and pain and sorrow.. i need deliverance.. i need a way out.. this is not a coward's stance.. it is the very fabric of someone who is so tired and so weary of all the emotional roller coster that he just wants to pull the plunge.. plummet the carriage.. and end the ride for eternity.. it is difficult to ride on based on current climate.. it is not humanly possible...

i thank the thousands of original courts in autumn for this enlightenment.. if not for the mighty chestnut and its sweet tooth effect on me many hours ago.. i would have never realised the impact that the imhabitants of this city can have on me.. make me think.. ponder.. pine and finally whine...

Lord.. i pray tonight.. please.... Take Me Away

take me away

take me away...

Note to Myself

away in a foreign land
missing a mama mia girl..
so many thousand autumns drifted away to an original court...

So Damn Tired

i miss the days of being carefree.. of having no one to answer to.. of living life the way i want to

Tokyo

here i am.. in a land where i never really liked..
somehow.. it had been a strange combi.. melancholy..
i feel sad yet glad..
the thousand autumn of original court beckons..
yet cast me away at weird timings...
and gave mixed signals of weirdness..
should i stay or should i go?
communication barrier is not the only issue here..
its the gap.. the culture.. the difference in perception...
the mighty chestnut started it all...

i feel very sad now.. i am so down.. so lonely.. so in need of someone

yet i realised.. i brought this upon myself....