Take Me Away

i am so tired of this place..
i don't mean that literally.. place in this instance is talking about the physical and psychological state of being.. in a limbo state.. in a state of hanging.. in a state of realising that your wife is still in your stratosphere.. still lingering in your mindshare.. still occupies a very very special place in your heart.. that is when you realise these are the ties that bind.. and yet there are cancerous prying forces that rip at the seams.. tear you apart.. the foreign invasion.. the necessary family evil..

life is a fine balance.. it is difficult to pry yourself from the interwined web of bondage and ties that one wish one can be sans of.. i am so tired.. please lord.. take me away.. deliver me from this current existence.. i do want to go.. far far away from these heartache and pain and sorrow.. i need deliverance.. i need a way out.. this is not a coward's stance.. it is the very fabric of someone who is so tired and so weary of all the emotional roller coster that he just wants to pull the plunge.. plummet the carriage.. and end the ride for eternity.. it is difficult to ride on based on current climate.. it is not humanly possible...

i thank the thousands of original courts in autumn for this enlightenment.. if not for the mighty chestnut and its sweet tooth effect on me many hours ago.. i would have never realised the impact that the imhabitants of this city can have on me.. make me think.. ponder.. pine and finally whine...

Lord.. i pray tonight.. please.... Take Me Away

take me away

take me away...