I am no longer as prolific a writer as I was many moons ago.
The inspiration has ceased. The thoughts blurred by copious amount of alcohol I introduce into my bloodstream on a daily basis. I am drinking way too much for my own good. But I am addicted. I can't help myself. I have to seek out the bottle night after night after night.
I thought that bringing a new life into this world would change things but how wrong I was. I am still the same person. Perhaps the only things that has changed is the lack of libido but I attribute that more to an age thing rather than having a child at home.
I miss my life away from home. Where I am living a lifelong dream of being in that city. I was only there for 14 months but I am trying my bloody best to get there and live there again. I would really love to.
Once again, I am left wishing I had never been born into this world. I want to get away from it. I wish I do not wake up. I wish for my life to end.
Can someone please do me a favour and put me out of this misery? I have too much cowardice to bring that release upon myself. Somebody help me please. I am begging you.
The inspiration has ceased. The thoughts blurred by copious amount of alcohol I introduce into my bloodstream on a daily basis. I am drinking way too much for my own good. But I am addicted. I can't help myself. I have to seek out the bottle night after night after night.
I thought that bringing a new life into this world would change things but how wrong I was. I am still the same person. Perhaps the only things that has changed is the lack of libido but I attribute that more to an age thing rather than having a child at home.
I miss my life away from home. Where I am living a lifelong dream of being in that city. I was only there for 14 months but I am trying my bloody best to get there and live there again. I would really love to.
Once again, I am left wishing I had never been born into this world. I want to get away from it. I wish I do not wake up. I wish for my life to end.
Can someone please do me a favour and put me out of this misery? I have too much cowardice to bring that release upon myself. Somebody help me please. I am begging you.
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