Drowning in a river of tea

ah yes.. the dynamic duo hits town again.. its been a long long while since the batmobile was seen zipping around town without the presence of catwoman.. the penguin.. the joker and the introduction of a new character.. the poodle.. the 2 crime fighters just hanging out without any other company had been rare due to individual commitment and situations they've found themselves to be in.. so last saturday was a welcome change.. an original idea to be out for quiet drinks evolved naturally into a boogie nite... there's always a danger of one abandoning the other for reasons unexplained but its a chance they're gonna take..

so as the potent brew found its way down the throat of the gulper.. the mind gets lifted onto a plain not parallel to the universe that we're familiar with.. the limbs start to have a life of their own and the consciousness of a pseudo royal reptile took over the earthly form of the namesake of mr albarn.. or mr neil.. depending on which genre you are familiar with.. the top was set loose once again on the floors of gold eating street.. although its not like a jungle.. and they're not exactly charmless man.. the music was adequately lifting to create bopping madness all over the dance floor and they soon found themselves in the company of an army recruit.. "the plateau gave it all away" my bro said.. i dun quite agree there and pointed out the get-up of people of yesteryears bopping around in the good ol' mtv bar.. giant screen on the dance floor no less.. those are really fun times and nowhere else on this tiny little island was that kind of fun place ever duplicated again..

ow ow ow ow ow ow ow~!!

"Girls who are boys
Who like boys
To be girls
Who do boys
Like they're girls
Who do girls
Like they're boys
Always should be someone you really love"
- Girls and Boys, Blur

The Wall

"Heaven, I’m in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find the happiness I seek
When we’re out together dancing cheek to cheek

Heaven, I’m in heaven
And the cares that hung around me through the week
Seem to vanish like a gambler’s lucky streak
When we’re out together dancing cheek to cheek

Oh I love to climb a mountain
And reach the highest peak
But it doesn’t thrill me half as much
As dancing cheek to cheek

Oh I love to go out fishing
In a river or a creek
But I don’t enjoy it half as much
As dancing cheek to cheek

Come on and dance with me
I want my arms about you
That charm about you
Will carry me through right up to heaven

I’m in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find the happiness I seek
When we’re out together dancing, out together dancing

Out together dancing cheek to cheek"

- Irving Berlin, Cheek to Cheek

Bai Kaya Roti

its been a sufficient length of of time to rather accurately take stock of wats going on and decide whether this is going anywhere.. the initial high, positive energy has given way to a settled state of being.. the differences.. many of them.. are being handled in a more adult and calm manner.. the connections have become more genuine and personal rather than just riding on the thrill of novelty.. having gone through very quickly wat most pple will probably go through in years.. we've also learn a lot and gained the strength and the conviction to move on..

i do not understand why reassurances from outside the union is necessary for the mere purpose of ego boosting or self assurance.. if an individual unit feels tat universal recognition is more important than the recognition and respect you earn from your partner.. or if your partner dun give you enough security or conviction about how fantastic you are.. then the partner is perhaps not meant to be at the end of the day.. a relationship is meant to make you happy.. joyous.. feel good about yourself.. make you feel like you're ready to take on the world with a strong foundation back home.. a harbour you can come back to anchor, stock up and re-charge after the exertions of the world.. sure.. tanjong pelepas might come and entice you with their newer facilities.. cheaper rates and better service but at the end of the day.. you have to know where your operational base is.. hear the connectivity options at keppel beckoning you.. do you really need the pakcik at pelepas telling you how beautiful your stern is? how majestic your smoke funnel is? KAOZ~!! the world is a bad bad place..

"The changing of sunlight to moonlight
Reflections of my life, oh, how they fill my eyes
The greetings of people in trouble
Reflections of my life, oh, how they fill my mind

All my sorrows, sad tomorrows
Take me back to my own home
All my cryings (all my cryings), feel I'm dying, dying
Take me back to my own home (oh I'm going home)

I'm changing, arranging, I'm changing
I'm changing everything, ah, everything around me

The world is a bad place, a bad place"
- Reflections of my life, The Marmalades

Puffed up

world cup fever is upon us again.. amazingly.. for a person who is very much a fan of the beautiful game.. i am nowhere as obsessed as some non-fans when it comes to following the fortunes of some of the teams who are located halfway around the globe.. suddenly.. the spiky haired banking professional has turned into someone who has soaked in the samba heat half his life.. some geeky IT professional has been consuming kimchi his whole life etc etc.. this is most weird.. and half of these soccer obssessed individuals who pledge allegiance to their "favourite teams" can't even kick a ball if their lives depended on it.. notwithstanding.. it is also very much a reflection of our country's lack of identity and focus.. whoever are the favourites will receive their fair share of backing.. you do not see such fervour and enthuasism when the singapore national team plays..

the last time the stadium was packed (and not for NDP but for a football match) was when singapore won the tiger cup.. tat was over 2 legs and singapore had virtually won having gained the upper hand in the first leg in indonesia.. so our supporters suddenly turned into "die hard" fans who have always been there for the lions.. this is just so typical.. the "i am behind you as long as you win" mindset.. this is not called die hard.. but then again.. we've been weaned on a must win culture so i guess the whole bunch of us walking around zombified and programmed to align ourselves with winners is nothing new..

during this month.. i am just gonna enjoy myself watching becks bend the ball.. ronaldinho amaze with his antics.. ronaldo mesmerise with his stepovers and zidane going on and on while betraying his age in this last hurrah.. damn.. i dun even like the french team.. the only team i can probably identify with as a proxy is ironically T&T.. they are a tiny nation of 1.1 million and yet have defied the odds to qualify for the world cup.. having said that.. they do have big names starring in top european leagues.. we have mere names wanting to be seen in HRC..

Shot through the heart

its really amazing how someone whom you hold so dear to your heart can summon the energy within herself to shoot the hurtful arrows right through you without batting an eyelid.. likening this union to the past is something totally out of the world from the sphere i live in.. i really cannot comprehend how someone with one foot out still want to be in a set up.. only very selfish reasons can be gathered here.. but i do not want to speculate for it is not fair.. having said that.. who is being fair to me right now?

i feel very disappointed to be let down time and again.. my heart cannot take the repeated stress thrown my way by a partner who is totally oblivious to my needs and wants while requiring me to be this high energy tireless duracell bunny hopping around and drumming on my plastic instrument while grinning mindlessly and staring into space.. most robotic.. providing entertainment and the mandatory warmth as and when required by her.. the best option is to dole out the cash and seek out a love slave that will cater to your every whim and fancy without having to give a goddamn hoot about the way he is feeling..

well.. it can be just me can't it? so if we are from totally stratospheric layers.. then please let us remain in our individual comfort zone and not get mired in emotions and sentiments and continue to drag each other to the core of earth.. no one wants to be there.. and especially not when 06/06/06 is drawing near.. i know my name sounds rather similar to the fiend but i am not about to align myself in his social circle..

"I’ve got no worries
I’ve got no regrets
Who they think they’re kidding
They ain’t seen nothing yet

You point my finger try to tell me I’m wrong
That never stopped me from singin’ my song
I got the last laugh at the things they do
Eliminate them at the turn of a screw

I never lived by nobody’s rules
I won’t be sinking on that ship of fools
Can’t push me no matter how hard they try
Stand back, it’s my turn to fly

Come hell, hell or high water
Nothing’s gonna hold me down
Come hell, hell or high water
Ain’t no body messin’ me around

I see their wicked ways
And miles of endless lies
Their jaded lives
Couldn’t erase my smile

But what’s this shit that I just heard
Son of a bitch you’re working on my nerves
I’ll watch you choke on your last words
It’s about time you got what you deserved

I never lived by nobody’s rules
I won’t be sinking on that ship of fools
Can’t push me no matter how hard they try
Stand back, it’s my turn to fly

I’ve got something that’s been on my mind
Come close I’ll tell you the problem that I find
I’m sick and tired of the damage you’ve done
Don’t blame me I ain’t the one
Blame yourself for the ghosts in your past

Kiss my ass"
- Come Hell or High Water, Poison