Shot through the heart

its really amazing how someone whom you hold so dear to your heart can summon the energy within herself to shoot the hurtful arrows right through you without batting an eyelid.. likening this union to the past is something totally out of the world from the sphere i live in.. i really cannot comprehend how someone with one foot out still want to be in a set up.. only very selfish reasons can be gathered here.. but i do not want to speculate for it is not fair.. having said that.. who is being fair to me right now?

i feel very disappointed to be let down time and again.. my heart cannot take the repeated stress thrown my way by a partner who is totally oblivious to my needs and wants while requiring me to be this high energy tireless duracell bunny hopping around and drumming on my plastic instrument while grinning mindlessly and staring into space.. most robotic.. providing entertainment and the mandatory warmth as and when required by her.. the best option is to dole out the cash and seek out a love slave that will cater to your every whim and fancy without having to give a goddamn hoot about the way he is feeling..

well.. it can be just me can't it? so if we are from totally stratospheric layers.. then please let us remain in our individual comfort zone and not get mired in emotions and sentiments and continue to drag each other to the core of earth.. no one wants to be there.. and especially not when 06/06/06 is drawing near.. i know my name sounds rather similar to the fiend but i am not about to align myself in his social circle..

"I’ve got no worries
I’ve got no regrets
Who they think they’re kidding
They ain’t seen nothing yet

You point my finger try to tell me I’m wrong
That never stopped me from singin’ my song
I got the last laugh at the things they do
Eliminate them at the turn of a screw

I never lived by nobody’s rules
I won’t be sinking on that ship of fools
Can’t push me no matter how hard they try
Stand back, it’s my turn to fly

Come hell, hell or high water
Nothing’s gonna hold me down
Come hell, hell or high water
Ain’t no body messin’ me around

I see their wicked ways
And miles of endless lies
Their jaded lives
Couldn’t erase my smile

But what’s this shit that I just heard
Son of a bitch you’re working on my nerves
I’ll watch you choke on your last words
It’s about time you got what you deserved

I never lived by nobody’s rules
I won’t be sinking on that ship of fools
Can’t push me no matter how hard they try
Stand back, it’s my turn to fly

I’ve got something that’s been on my mind
Come close I’ll tell you the problem that I find
I’m sick and tired of the damage you’ve done
Don’t blame me I ain’t the one
Blame yourself for the ghosts in your past

Kiss my ass"
- Come Hell or High Water, Poison